only change is constant

I dont understand the male species and I'm sure they dont understand me either...and thats ok. Why is it ok? I'm not sure, but I just know that it is. I am complex. I am the only one that thinks that but I know its true. Sometimes I am too laid back for my own good. I apologize sometimes for that but I cant change it because I dont want to.

I like being the way I am for the most part. I learned a helluva lot from my last relationship. I learned to keep my heart wrapped up until I am 100% sure its needs to be opened. I'm being stingy with it until I find the person that I feel is deserving of it. I'm a work in progress I know. I have a lot of things I probably need to iron out about me but the point is that I'm working on it.

I cant run behind anyone. I can't convince someone that I'm the one for them. I refuse to play the cat and mouse game and I definitely can't hold my breath for longer than 10 seconds. All this to say what? I'm not sure, it was in my head and as always. I had to let it out.