Get over yourself...or not

Spent another day today at the spa. Its becoming somewhat of a small addiction now. I feel so good when I leave. Doesn't really last long tho. I can't really say that I haven't been trying to pamper myself these last couple of months because I have. Just doesn't seem to have the same feeling as if it was done by someone else. Why does that matter to me so much? I'm not really sure, but who wouldn't love that from time to time?

My spoiling myself today included a facial and a simple manicure. Nothing too fancy but it sure felt good as hell. I'm gonna curb goin so much in a few weeks. I just pretty much wanted to try one of each of the things on the "menu" if you will to see what I like. I know I love the facials, the pedicures and I'm anticipating the same thing with the massage which I have scheduled for March 2nd. ~Yay~

If only I could get my inside to feel as happy as my outside appears at times, but then again I haven't really been doin a great job of masking that. It's so easy to pretend to be in a good mood. Maybe its the weather. I hate the winter months. Maybe I just need for it to be warm again so that I can get out again and do more. Who knows. I'm not even sure why I felt compelled to write tonite. I just know its 1am and I'm at work bored to death so I'm eating every thing in sight. I'm not hungry or anything. I'm just bored and its weird, but when I'm bored to death I eat a lot. Which explains the 20lbs I've gained these last couple months.

I hate that but in a way I dont even care. I'm 40, and I'm not grotesquely overweight, yet, so I guess when I get to it I will get to it. Thats how it usually works. One day I just get up, put on the walking shoes, walk out the door and head to the gym and I'm committed to that until I get to where I want to be. I haven't gotten to that point just yet. Right now like I mentioned in a previous blog. I'm fine with just bitchin about my weight gain. ~Ugh!~

This weekend I will be goin back to Georgia. I kind of hate goin back home these days. Things have changed in the last couple years. People who were friends, dont really seem the same. I also lost a good friend to Cancer last year so I wont have that person to hang out with while I'm there. He always used to make me laugh, so it will definitely be a very short trip. Once I get back I will officially be on vacation. I plan to just get my house in order and clean out closets, (this is so interesting huh?) and just take some time for myself and relax.

Hmm well enuff of boring the masses. Enjoy your day.

me