Sunday, March 8, 2009



I wish


It wasn't so easy for me to get discouraged from doin things I really like. I wish I was motivated enough to try harder even tho it seems like I fail so much. I wish I wasn't so much of an introvert. I wish I could tolerate others more than I can now. I wish I knew how to fix my flaws and I wish I had the energy to want to fix them. I wish I understood the male mind and I wish I had the ability to understand the female mind.

I wish I could bring back my child. I wish I could send his father to the place he is now. I wish I didnt hate him so, but only because I'd like a fresh start at hatin him all over again. I wish I could erase him from my mind but then I'd have to wish that my sons memory would still somehow live on. I wish I knew how to control my emotions and feelings more and I wish that sometimes I didn't hate me as much as I do.

I wish I could lose some weight because I hate the state that I am in right now...and no, I'm not talkin about South Carolina. I wish I could find my high school sweetheart. I wish I could find another person on this earth who loved me like he used to. I wish all men could've been like him. I wish he was searchin for me still...like he was a while back before he just gave up.

I wish I was a happier person than I pretend to be.

just wishes

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