Pookie sleep/September 2005.

Pookie sleep/September 2005.
Originally uploaded by Wilhemina Lump Lump

doin whut he loves

12/22/07 Reflections;

Dam its been a long time. My how time flies.

Wow I was goin thru my pics and came across this one...and it is so funny.....There was a time not too long ago when I loved this person with all my heart and would've done anythin in my power to make him happy and did do that.

Now look at where we are. He tries to speak to me.....constantly asks for my forgiveness..but his pleas fall on deaf ears and a hardened heart now. Smh! It's unreal to me now how back then that I thought that I could not breathe without him in my life. I could never imagine myself happy without him but look at me now, I am happy.

I used to think that I simply could not live without him..and now...today I am living and doin just fine. Some ppl men and women alike dont appreciate what they have until its gone. I'm not a perfect person...but I know without a shadow of a doubt that I was more than good to this person...and in the end thats all I could do/be.

Maybe one day...I can find it in my heart to forgive him...but its been a year...and so far...I dont see it happening any time soon. I think ppl should put their games aside when they are dealing with other ppl's hearts. Thats just my thought. If u want something say it....be a man or woman..and say...I just want this or I just want that...and give the other person the opportunity to decide if thats what they want instead of pretending or keepin secrets. I think life would be so much simpler that way. I gave 4 years of my life to this person....lost a child with this person....put up wit a lot of stuff cuz inside I felt I didnt deserve anything any different. Those were 4 hard years...some good times.. some happy times...but for the most part....LOTS of stress, and unhappiness and walking around on egg shells. Never again.

I'm glad that I went thru that now...because I see now that .....I can endure hard times..and still come out strong. I am better because of this experience...and I learned a valuable lesson. I learned that u can't trust anyone....you can open your heart as wide as ya want...but u betta be ready to close that mutha at a moments notice if u want to remain unscathed.

I guess thats why right now I am soooooooooo not feeling being in any type of relationship wit any man right now.

Some of you are too dam grown to still be tryna run game and live the street life. Get it together...be yourself.....be real...be honest...and you never know u just might BE happy in the end.