*sigh*
Lil Jeremiah...u dont know it yet..but you are in for one heck of a ride with your crazy momma. All we can do as your family is make sure that while the ride is somewhat rocky...u will definately remain safe from harm.
Last nite you almost lost your precious life...and you are still not out of the woods yet. You are still fighting for your chance to be on this earth. I hope God does not use u as a tool to show your mother that she needs to slow her ass down and sit down somewhere and take care of u guys like she needs to.
You and Daveion and NiShonti and Ahmad deserve a better life than the one u are getting right now. As your auntie...all I can do is try and help out as much as I can and I most definately will do that.
My prayers are with you while u are in the hospital...and I pray that u will be ok.
Love your Auntie.
Monday, December 31, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Pookie sleep/September 2005.
doin whut he loves
12/22/07 Reflections;
Dam its been a long time. My how time flies.
Wow I was goin thru my pics and came across this one...and it is so funny.....There was a time not too long ago when I loved this person with all my heart and would've done anythin in my power to make him happy and did do that.
Now look at where we are. He tries to speak to me.....constantly asks for my forgiveness..but his pleas fall on deaf ears and a hardened heart now. Smh! It's unreal to me now how back then that I thought that I could not breathe without him in my life. I could never imagine myself happy without him but look at me now, I am happy.
I used to think that I simply could not live without him..and now...today I am living and doin just fine. Some ppl men and women alike dont appreciate what they have until its gone. I'm not a perfect person...but I know without a shadow of a doubt that I was more than good to this person...and in the end thats all I could do/be.
Maybe one day...I can find it in my heart to forgive him...but its been a year...and so far...I dont see it happening any time soon. I think ppl should put their games aside when they are dealing with other ppl's hearts. Thats just my thought. If u want something say it....be a man or woman..and say...I just want this or I just want that...and give the other person the opportunity to decide if thats what they want instead of pretending or keepin secrets. I think life would be so much simpler that way. I gave 4 years of my life to this person....lost a child with this person....put up wit a lot of stuff cuz inside I felt I didnt deserve anything any different. Those were 4 hard years...some good times.. some happy times...but for the most part....LOTS of stress, and unhappiness and walking around on egg shells. Never again.
I'm glad that I went thru that now...because I see now that .....I can endure hard times..and still come out strong. I am better because of this experience...and I learned a valuable lesson. I learned that u can't trust anyone....you can open your heart as wide as ya want...but u betta be ready to close that mutha at a moments notice if u want to remain unscathed.
I guess thats why right now I am soooooooooo not feeling being in any type of relationship wit any man right now.
Some of you are too dam grown to still be tryna run game and live the street life. Get it together...be yourself.....be real...be honest...and you never know u just might BE happy in the end.
12/22/07 Reflections;
Dam its been a long time. My how time flies.
Wow I was goin thru my pics and came across this one...and it is so funny.....There was a time not too long ago when I loved this person with all my heart and would've done anythin in my power to make him happy and did do that.
Now look at where we are. He tries to speak to me.....constantly asks for my forgiveness..but his pleas fall on deaf ears and a hardened heart now. Smh! It's unreal to me now how back then that I thought that I could not breathe without him in my life. I could never imagine myself happy without him but look at me now, I am happy.
I used to think that I simply could not live without him..and now...today I am living and doin just fine. Some ppl men and women alike dont appreciate what they have until its gone. I'm not a perfect person...but I know without a shadow of a doubt that I was more than good to this person...and in the end thats all I could do/be.
Maybe one day...I can find it in my heart to forgive him...but its been a year...and so far...I dont see it happening any time soon. I think ppl should put their games aside when they are dealing with other ppl's hearts. Thats just my thought. If u want something say it....be a man or woman..and say...I just want this or I just want that...and give the other person the opportunity to decide if thats what they want instead of pretending or keepin secrets. I think life would be so much simpler that way. I gave 4 years of my life to this person....lost a child with this person....put up wit a lot of stuff cuz inside I felt I didnt deserve anything any different. Those were 4 hard years...some good times.. some happy times...but for the most part....LOTS of stress, and unhappiness and walking around on egg shells. Never again.
I'm glad that I went thru that now...because I see now that .....I can endure hard times..and still come out strong. I am better because of this experience...and I learned a valuable lesson. I learned that u can't trust anyone....you can open your heart as wide as ya want...but u betta be ready to close that mutha at a moments notice if u want to remain unscathed.
I guess thats why right now I am soooooooooo not feeling being in any type of relationship wit any man right now.
Some of you are too dam grown to still be tryna run game and live the street life. Get it together...be yourself.....be real...be honest...and you never know u just might BE happy in the end.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
It's just me
Hmm today is Sunday....think I had more than my share of sugar today....not good.
I ventured out and tried something new today...was a receipe that I got from a flickr friend for Beef and broccoli...let me tell you it tasted something good. I was very happy with the outcome and I was more happy I think that when I took a picture of it that came out pretty darn nice as well.
I'm doin the best I can with these pictures. Im tryin to learn very slowly the settings on my camera and how to use them. It's gonna take a minute until I can get into a class or something but I'll get it i'm sure.
Im gonna buy a smaller ipod and get myself a small bookbag so that I will always have camera and tripod ready. I wanna do this...I have always loved photography. I just wanted to do more..just still dont know how yet, but Im willing to learn...just need to find that hands on teacher.
Takes time.
I ventured out and tried something new today...was a receipe that I got from a flickr friend for Beef and broccoli...let me tell you it tasted something good. I was very happy with the outcome and I was more happy I think that when I took a picture of it that came out pretty darn nice as well.
I'm doin the best I can with these pictures. Im tryin to learn very slowly the settings on my camera and how to use them. It's gonna take a minute until I can get into a class or something but I'll get it i'm sure.
Im gonna buy a smaller ipod and get myself a small bookbag so that I will always have camera and tripod ready. I wanna do this...I have always loved photography. I just wanted to do more..just still dont know how yet, but Im willing to learn...just need to find that hands on teacher.
Takes time.
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