Why do I bother sometimes.

Why do I bother sometimes.
Originally uploaded by Wilhemina Lump Lump

I hate being disappointed and I dont really give a rat ass sometimes if its something beyond a persons control. I still hate being disappointed. Does that make me a bad person? Do I care? nope.

I try to do things for people..especially if I say that I'm gonna do something but hmmmm turnaround? its not fairplay...believe that. Not all the time.

I am so annoyed today about so much stuff that I honestly feel like I am goin to P-O-P!

2008 has definately started off better than last year...but for once I can say its not because of anyone else...its because I've been busting my perverbial ass takin care of some things that were chokin the life out of me....and just wearing me down.

I still need to work on the relationship side of things. I am terrible at that. I dont believe in giving folks second chances. Either get it right the first time or move the hell on. Thats just how I feel. I always say...if u wanna be with someone then be with them and cut the crap. You know when u are doing something wrong that its wrong. U dont just figure that shyt out after the fact. When u are actually doin it...something in your brain is sayin...hmmm this aint right....so how can u fault a person for not being willing to forgive you when u knew in the first place u were screwing up.

I dont know why I'm bringing that up because I dont even have a man. Sometimes I wonder if I need one. I think I am twisted a lil too tight. I hate being lied to. I hate being disappointed. I am very moody..and I like my space. To me that sounds like..."You need to stay single"

hmm what else is bothering me today??? oh ...If I have to drive to Georgia one more time to pick up my mother...cuz she doesnt want to drive the 4 hours to get here..I think I'm goin to drive my car off the bridge. She wants to come here to see my brothers new baby...and my other brothers wife is due any day now so she's coming specifically for that...but yet I'm the one who is always designated to drive down there in my SMALL car to get her and my nephew. Of every single person in my entire family...I am the one with the oldest and smallest car....and the least dependable....so please tell me WHY am I always the one looked upon to do all the driving. No one cares that I work a 12 hour shift and then once i get off my cell is ringing off the hook. Have u left yet? are you on your way? Arrrgh! driving 4 hours after being awake all nite at work.

Only to get to Georgia and find that my mom is not ready and does not have one item packed. *prays* So I have to wait hours for her to get ready....then hop back into the car and drive 4 hours back to South Carolina....and most times...work the very next day. Happens like that every single time.

I am so sick of Georgia til its not even funny. Today has been a very miserable and disappointing day. I dont expect anything different tomorrrow. Happy Freakin Valentines Day!